I spy great things.

I am definitely no psychic, but I do imagine what my future will be like. I imagine great things. I imagine my husband and I living a happy life together. I imagine my beautiful future children. I imagine us being stable not only economically, but emotionally. I even see our home and pets! I see many wonderful things in my future, and I pray that God leads me towards them. I once read a book called "The Fourth Dimension" by Dr. David Yonggi Cho, in which he speaks of faith and effective prayer. He says that some people live poor lifestyles because the words that come out of their mouths are oppressive and negative. If we stay positive and think that good things will happen to us, it is very likely that good things will happen to us. When we pray for things, we have to visualize them and exercise our faith! We have a great God who can do all things. We have no reason to expect bad things to happen. We should pray and expect that our prayers will be answered. Matthew 7:7 says "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."

It is inevitable to feel a little doubtful sometimes, but it's definitely not the way to live. When you feel like the stress of life is drowning you, just think of the beautiful light you will see at the end of the tunnel. I have my many moments of stress, but I try to think of the great things my future holds to keep me motivated. If you stay motivated and keep moving forward, you will get to your goal!

Here's a couple of things I see in my future:

1) I don't see us always being this young, but I do see us being this in love with each other. On December 12, 2010 I said some words that I meant with all of my heart. I love will always love Jon. I am very blessed to have such a wonderful husband, and I'm looking forward to spending the rest of my life with him.



" I've got the will to love you always. Through the chilliest winter. The hot summer haze. I've got the will to love you always. I've got the will to love."

2) A beautiful home.



3) My babies! I don't have pictures of them yet, but once I do get some I'm sure I'll be blowing up my blog with them!

4) I know my husband sees this...




But right now I am wanting to be this:



And I very much see it happening in the near future... Like right now! I don't know why I always have to blog in the wee hours of the night. Well goodnight to you all! I hope you dream about your wonderful future! Goodnight! :)

My name is _____, It's oh so _____!

So this morning when I was at Subway some really annoying song came on, and it's been stuck in my head all day! It says something like "My name is keri i'm oh so scary...." well anyway, the whole song she is just rhyming with her name, and I've been singing different versions of the song all day! Like "My name is Keri, I'm oh so hairy. They can call me beary." Sadly, the song doesn't really work with my name...Wah!

Here's me trying anyway:

"My name is Marlyn, it rhymes with Darlene. But if that was my name then I'd be kinda gnarly (no offense to the Darlenes of this world). I dream of having a daughter named Marley, but if that doesn't happen then it's gonna be Carly?"

Okay, NO! Well hopefully now that I wrote about it, I won't have that wretched song in my head and I will be able to sleep in peace! Goodnight world!

Where my heart is...

Would I sound too much like John Mayer if I said that half of my heart is somewhere across the world? Well actually it's not half of my heart, it's half of me! Last time I heard, my other half was in Africa. It's also not half of my heart, it's all of my heart! Wondering how I am alive? Me too.

It's been a little over a month that Jon went on deployment. I am missing him so much. It's no fun to be without him. No kisses when I come home, no one to cuddle with, no one to play rockband with, no one to watch movies with, no... well you get the picture. It also seems as if everything has been put on pause or at least slow motion. Last month felt like 4 months! I miss my best friend!

There are many things that have been keeping me pretty optimistic in these blue times though. One of them is, of course, Jon! I get emails pretty much everyday. They really make my day so much brighter. They're like Oxy-clean to my day! They make my whites whiter and my brights brighter! I'm so blessed to have such an amazing husband like him. I thank God for him everyday. God has blessed me so much and has never failed me. He's got our marriage in his hands, and that is exactly how I know that we are going to be just fine in our journey together. I doesn't matter how many miles we are apart, we've always got each other and it really makes things so much easier on my heart. I'm also blessed to have such a supportive family. They make my load seem so much lighter. I can't thank them enough so much for all they've done for me! They never cease to add some laughs into my day, and distract me from boring accounting homework too. Although I have run into a couple of dragons since school has started, it has been helping the time go by faster. Well at least I know that time never stops, and I will see him very soon!

I love Jon so much, and I sure can't wait until he comes home. I keep in mind that this is only temporary, and that there is so much to look forward to when he comes back home. There are many wonderful moments waiting for us in the future, and I know that God will get us there. There's no other hand I'd rather hold, no one I'd rather grow old with, and no one I can love as much as I love him.

Here's a little slide show I made for him. We've made some great memories! I can't wait to make some more :) I'm so glad I can call him my husband and best friend. I love you Babe! <3

Find the time.

This past week was a "go, go, go!" type of week. I had/have a to-do list as long as the Great Wall of China. It's all pretty much about school or the wedding. Well in that list was the WPST, which is the writing proficiency test for the University. It's when you have to go to the university at the crack of dawn to write about something random (for example: what's your favorite moment in life) so that you can get into some class that you need to graduate. Well I had to write about how something I've learned at the university has impacted my life. I wrote about how my American Theatre class. That class is definitely the most relaxing class in my schedule this semester. It's a fun class that I actually enjoy so I thought I should pay it some tribute.

In one of the paragraphs, I wrote about how that class has inspired me to take time out of my day to enjoy art. We are all artists, and we also enjoy the art of others. I consider my art to be writing, singing, and playing guitar. I may not be an expert at all of them, but I do enjoy myself when I do these things. I also enjoy listening to music, watching movies, and reading. I do this because I enjoy the work of other artists. Art just makes my quality of life so much better.

It's really important to appreciate yourself and others. Not only their art, but their individuality and just who they are as a person. I'm glad we're all different, or we wouldn't be able to enjoy a variety of things. If everyone was like me, there would be no art exhibits or theatres. We would all look and act like me too...and I'm glad that not everyone looks and acts like me! That would be kinda creepy and pretty boring too.

We all have special people and abilities in our lives. We need to start appreciating them! I know the day goes by fast and that there is so much to do, but lets find time to let them know how awesome they are, and that their art or individuality makes your life so much better. Take time out of your day to enjoy the things you're good at to or just the things you like doing! Life is too short to be stuck in routines of the day.

I need to really start doing this myself. There are so many amazing people in my life! They make my life so much better. Dear Jon, Mom, Dad, and Magda....You all bring so much happiness into my life. You guys make me excited about the future. There's not a day that goes by that I don't appreciate you. Thank you so much! I love you!

And for anyone who reads this... thank you for reading!

If I was a flower growing wild and free, all I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.

I was attempting to break a sweat on the treadmill when all of a sudden this song comes out, and a smile stretches across my face. I no longer feel like I am in a cold garage surrounded by boxes. I feel like I'm somewhere pretty, surrounded by sunlight and flowers. The strenuous walk turns into a cheery glide. I feel like I'm walking next to my sweet Jon Pena.

I was listening to the "All I want is You" cover of Tristan Prettyman. It's one of our very favorites. This is the Juno version, which sounds a little silly, but I'm sure it will still have that smile-stretching effect. Anyway, this one goes out to you babe. Goodnight and enjoy! <3

November.

Dear November,

You're the month I always look forward to seeing. Much more than all the other months of the year (don't let them find out). You bring the most anticipated days of the year: my birthday and thanksgiving. You're also next to December which is pretty awesome. You two are definitely the life of the party. Not like March. I mean, come on, what happens in March? Anyway, I love the way you change the color of the trees and your great weather. I get to bring out my favorite clothes! I love wearing sweaters, scarves, and boots. You are awesome! I hope you're enjoying the earth so far, and I hope you enjoy the rest of your stay! I'll see you again next year!

Sincerely,

Marlyn

This is the story of a Girl....and a boy.

Hello my fellow bloggers!

Yes, I still remember that this thing called a "blog" still exists, and we are not yet strangers! Actually, I really missed spilling my nonsensical thoughts on a blank page of cyber-space. It has been such a long time, and all I can think about is all of the changes that have occurred since I last shared my thoughts with you guys.

Okay, so last time you heard from me was February and now it's November! It rained a little, the flowers bloomed, and then "Hello summer!" the sun came out! Around this time, June 16th to be exact, I was experiencing something that I would call positively life-changing. The person who I can truly call my sunshine, Jon Pena, came back into my life. Now I can call him my husband! The story is beautiful, but like all beautiful stories (for example: The notebook, Pride & Prejudice,and every love story with a happy ending) it is long! If you want to know the details then maybe I can get a contract with a film company. I'm pretty much the equivalent to Kristen Stewart when it comes to acting. You can judge if that is a good thing or not. Anyway, the story is not over! It actually barely begun. It started on June 16th, and the ending is....well, until death do us part. You get the picture! ;)

This story started in Oakdale, but then I moved to Lathrop where everything is so much closer! I'm so glad that I no longer have to drive 45 minutes to get to school, the mall,and uhhhhh... everywhere! It is definitely like me to get off topic. Anyway, prince charming came to visit in August. It was in the plus size section of Wal-mart in Stockton that I fell in love all over again. I hadn't seen him in two years, but it sure didn't feel like that when I saw him. The feeling I felt was so familiar and irreplaceable. I could only feel like that about one person in this world, and it was him.

About a week later, I was getting engaged in front the Burns tower at the University of the Pacific. About a month later, I was getting legally married in Reno! AND In about a month, I will be having my wedding ceremony and reception! As you can see, it has been an eventful year.

When 2010 first started, I had a few ways that could imagine the year ending. I thought maybe I would have lost those 5 pounds, or perhaps that I would have written my own book. Turns out God had other plans for me. Next year should be a very different year for me. I'll be married, living in Florida, and I'll be an aunt! I'm mega excited for all these future events! I am a big ball of emotions when it comes to changes, but I feel a sense of peace when I think about how God will be there with me every moment. I know that if I trust in him and follow him I'll be just fine.

Sorry about all of the little blanks and lack of detail! I'll blame it on my tired mind. It's definitely time to say goodnight. So.... Goodnight! :)